Monster

And the monster seems to be me

I feel I can't win anything

Ain't it amazing

How you played me

We tend to forget all the pain and regret instead of just healing it fully

And that's when we bend and we break

Cuz we're sensitive to ever properly changing

I looked her in the eyes

My heart is burning up inside

I know you'll talk to other guys

I'm sad, but put my smile outside

I'm used to this pain, but for some reason, it hurts

It feels like you stole and buried me in the dirt

While you put me second, girl, I put you first

Just buy me a rose and put me in the hearse

And I know that I'll be fine; you go and find another guy

I lost you, and you're no longer mine

And please don't come back I don't have the time

And the monster seems to be me

I feel I can't win anything

Ain't it amazing

How you played me

Dealing with depression

Haven't learned my lesson

But I see the blessings

Changing my perspective

Searching for direction

Then, I'll manifest it

Used to living reckless

Then I did repentance

God and I were wrestling

And he put the pressure

Wanna be a pastor

God is what I'm after

Now I'm full of laughter

Found love in disaster

Death is comin' faster

Now I see the monster

And the monster seems to be me

I feel I can't win anything

Ain't it amazing

How you played me