I go out, and I use my charm

I know just what to say and how to wear my hair

Sex is so easy to get

Men are so easy to charm

Let's address the elephant in the room

You hate me for the very thing that brought me to you

It was cute when I was 21, but now I have to cut the shit

'Cause I don't wanna lose you, and I wanna find myself

I'm so sick of talking about my childhood

'Cause it’s embarrassing when I say it out loud

When I tell my friends or write about it in a song

'Cause on paper, everything was totally normal until I actually wrote it down on paper

So I wake up, and I cry into a pillow instead of blowing up my life

The other night, I put my shame into a box

And I left it at the bottom of the stairs

Then I asked you to tell me all of the ways that I've hurt you over the years

We held hands and cried

And I actually apologized

'Cause it doesn't really matter what I do, what I do, if I just keep doing it

And I don't wanna lose you, and I wanna find myself