First Time

I put on my make up Spray my perfume Sat on the front porch, waitin' on you Said we would catch up because it had been awhile I hate to admit it But my hands are shakin' Barely breathing Heart is racing Looks like feelings don't always change their minds But you never called, never showed up Guess somethings never change And just like livin' in a flashback... you let me down again And that's why the past should be the past Far behind, back of mind, out of the way Let the memories burn and crash 'Cause sittin' here lookin' at the driveway Is just tearing my heart back in half Like nothing's changed except the time that's passed And that's why goodbye should mean goodbye The first time I should know better I hate that I still cry Lookin' like a fool here watchin' for headlights And kickin' myself for believin' in you again I bet your out drinking with a new blonde and tellin' her whatever's playing is her song Yeah and helpin' her up into your Chevy instead Even when you don't have me You can still be the one to hurt me It must feel good to know That I'm still holding on to letting go And that's why the past should be the past Far behind, back of mind, out of the way Let the memories burn and crash 'Cause sittin' here lookin' at the driveway Is just tearing my heart back in half Like nothing's changed except the time that's passed And that's why goodbye should mean goodbye The first time And that's why the past should be the past Far behind, back of mind, out of the way Let the memories burn and crash 'Cause sittin' here lookin' at the driveway Is just tearing my heart back in half Like nothing's changed except the time that's passed And that's why goodbye should mean goodbye So now I'm letting you go, just like I should have tried The first time The first time And that's why the past should be the past Oh, the first time