Bedroom Song

I'm back in the city I was raised by

I don't know who to talk to or how to act

I can't ignore a clock ticking violently

Pass out in bedrooms I swore I'd leave in my past

I'm an adult now

I know less than I ever have

Old loves are moved on now

Finally feel the heartbreak I never let myself have

I would get high in the bathroom

Sink and wish the door was kicked in

Asking for forgiveness, missing asking for permission

I would have done so much differently

I would have done so much differently

I would have let you in when you wanted to

The wind is howling louder than I ever said I wanted you

But I wanted you

Could've tried harder

Thought it was out of my hands

It was all predisposed

I'm sorry I left it all up to you

And for thinking I was born to grow old alone

I would get high in the bathroom

Sink and wish the door was kicked in

Asking for forgiveness, missing asking for permission

I would have done so much differently

I would have done so much differently

I would have let you in when you wanted to

The wind is howling louder than I ever said I wanted you

But I wanted you