Chasing Ghosts (feat. Dwizofoz)

I can't do it bruv I'm tired and stressed My mind is a mess I'm sick of living life in my head Anxiety is like a knife in my chest It makes it hard to breath My heart is weak and it's dying for strength I've seen shit that I still fucking dream about I need to blow my brains on the wall To let my demons out I used to have a family but I don't see them now It's why I'm so closed off and hardly get to leave the house Look me in the eyes bruv, listen to my words I know this shit's been hurting since the minute of your birth And you're feeling like where you belong Isn't here on Earth But you got too much to give and this decision is the worst Plus your little brothers need you Rivers just diverse Without you winding up in prison or a hearse I know you wanna live to see your missus giving birth And be there for your child And be the dad that you deserve I got it in my head that they'll be better when I'm gone When I'm dead I hope they don't remember me at all When they send me to the morgue I don't want to be identified I don't wanna be seen by any family or friends of mine Especially with the best friend I ever had I've already broken his heart And I can't handle that I'm too weak to carry the weight Like cheap handle straps Everything I ever had is gone And I can't get it back Well if for no-one else Do it for you, brah Do it to say fuck your past Do it for your future You're stronger than you know bruv I'm telling you, I'll be by your side, every step If you want I'll go to Hell with you And pull you out the other side, Breathing, I know that's not you wanting to die bro, That's just the pipe speaking, To fight demons, I've seen it I won't let it happen to you, You know what I'm saying is true If not for me I should prevail for them Because they have everything to lose And I'm just waiting for death I say I'm strong and loyal If I was I'd stay til the end And hold my whole fan down Til the day that I'm dead I be the King that my Queen deserves A brother to shove, Sitting next to real life and with my Mum & my Dad But I'm not so I'm sitting drunk mumbling raps That place confession sipping liquor with a gun in my lap See that's the you I know, The you I know you wanna be I know you at war with yourself And all you want is peace But brother please, just give me the piece, It's not your time to go I'm talking to Taylor now, I'm not talking to Flowz I just wish I woulda told you this sooner, We can't change the past But you coulda had a whole different future And I just can't let go Listening to the echoes of your voice While I'm sitting here Talking to your headstone. Shoutouts to Eren Wooz A