Smoke

I remember thinkin' We just gotta make a change Somethin' little different from the same lame monday bus lane Mama had money for some drink No amount of dollas could amount to all the drama that we sustained And daddy was nonexistent Created an imaginary place that I can happily exist in The new nigga she was with was as hollow as a sea shell Didn't even follow with a (?) hell If he was really was (?) That would mean that I put my hands on a female The reason many nights I didn't sleep well Butcher knife under the pillow And if she yell I'm coming at this bully with everything that I got Nosy neighbors too black to call the cops Piss stains on the bed Ring worms on my head from the mattresses we flipped Aw Really wanted to escape so I dreamed of a place I could go cus it's really all I had Mama got a little raise now we can save It was coo, it was all glad Every silver lining has a black cloud I could see it (?) It's smoke we're breathing, breathing Every corner street light got shot out Woke up from our sleeping Let the darkness seep in, seep in I faded awful (?) Something came over me Moved to victorville where the breeze carried every tumble weed Everything all good Moved away from the costant struggle and the pain of the hood That's when I smiled the best Like, "nigga, you wouldn't believe my house got spiral steps." The bullshit ain't in society, yet Brain still full of problem in this bitch And we dying of stress Something told me that the game don't change Went from stacking up checks to the same ol' same ol' same Man, everything started changin' White peeps moved in, light speeds so the games couldn't place em I was confused said fuck all the rules Started skipping out on school and hanging with the goons But I ain't really like that life They was (?) down in the ground I had my mind on heights They said nigga was a weirdo Couldn't see how I had my vision so clear, though Spendin' whole lotta years feeling hella lonely I'm thankin all the hard times cus they really showed me (Yea) No matter how much hell, not a damn thing changed 'less I change myself I ain't asking for nobody help Gotta leave my fears with that empty bottle on the shelf Every silver lining has a black cloud I could see it soothing It's smoke we're breathing, breathing Every corner street light got shot out Woke us from our sleeping Let the darkness seep in, seep in