Lately

Lately it's been hard for me to smile Try so hard but im in denial All those names that i've been told They're running through my head Like im running miles How long while this go on for? I don't know but i am sure it will be a while I can't take this pain no more Liquor bottles there ain't no more All this stress theres plently more All these people yea i gave them all Where are they now They come and go I ask myself Why do i try I dont know I dont know Can't trust nobody these days Promises theyre all fake Everybody is fake Why so many damn hate I can't even trust my family They try to me Bring me down I tell them i do it for them Suddenly My dreams all drown I drown myself in my tears (yea) I drown myself in my fears (yea) I glance here from the stairs How everybody seems to live well Though they might be just like me Fighting demons just like me Masking their pain with a smile just like me See Ive been holding this in for way to long Hear my words of distress Ive been tryna remain strong But Its time to finally confess What i feel inside so i wrote it down So the world can hear my sound Thats so profound Before its to late And im not around All those names that i've been told They're running through my head Like im running miles How long while this go on for? I don't know but i am sure it will be a while I wonder if love was not meant for me Cause everytime i try they break me I give them my all they take advantage I give them my heart They give me fragments in return And i return cause i just do not learn Its hard to discern Who will overturn and hurt you I think you about you everyday Wondering if you are okay Living my life day by day Looking through my pictures and i see your face Memories start flashing Open up the numberpad and start dialying Cancel the call cause i can't do this And im back to where i started Gave you all i had but wanted me to conquest More than the world for you And if it weren't for you I would've never realized the lies you told me To blinded with this love That diguised it from me Everyone told me that your love wasn't real I ignored their appeal And continued to fall for you Cause i knew inside you felt something for me No matter what people told me They tried to show me I tried to show them The angel that you were for me You were forming a person in me That i never knew that i could be But Now that youre gone I honestly dont know what's left of me Lately it's been hard for me to smile Try so hard but im in denial All those names that i've been told They're running through my head Like i'm running miles How long while this go on for? I don't know but i am sure it will be a while I cry myself to sleep It seems that All these dreams Are just some fantasy To all my family I told myself that one day I'd try make a change Like martin luther king Hes still remembered to this day I was barely 13 When i decided to start rapping I told a few people They just started laughing My friends started to fade away Now im alone and on my way Still tryna find my purpose Music helps me cope with the pain Life hasnt been same Ever since i moved to a different state But here is where i picked up the mic And began my journey Experienced the fast life Surrounded by people Who wanna live the same life In the studio all day and all night Hoping our voice gets heard But its hard with all this new music Which is now preferred it so absurd Do you live the same shit thats all slurred On the verge of quitting But J Cole taught me to never omit And stay commited So here i am sitting In this room alone Thinking Of ways to possibly Finally make a difference