Restitution

I fell back with a sense of urgency The same lows, on a different frequency I lost touch, and felt the room scatter Subside, and opt for the latter I tried to get by balancing on fences But even indecision bears consequences I'm sorry for the way that things ended The lines get blurry when youre medicated I'm sleepless, and jaded It's my fault, I hate it Always longing for something more (It's all coming back to me now) I was tangled in her hair She was my cross to bear Pharmaceutical absolution But you can't pass the burden Blaming another person Hyper-delusional restitution I hit the gas It pulled me back The beasts of my burdens were fading fast I'll be the cul-de-sac Insomniac I'll die as a martyr, and maniac I'm sorry for the way that things ended The lines get blurry when youre medicated I'm sleepless, and jaded It's my fault, I hate it Always longing for something more The conversation started bearing its teeth Lock, stock, and stuck to her guns She had them pointed at me She said You're not a poet, or a prophecy Just a kid in your head With those hypothesis It's easier to be hopeless Pessimistic, and broken When you've gone too far But if you stand by the path you have chosen Confident and devoted You could learn to live with the scars I'm learning to live with the scars I'm sorry for the way that things ended The lines get blurry when youre medicated I'm sleepless, and jaded It's my fault, I hate it Always longing for something more Forever longing for something more