Jealousy

Where do I begin Describing how I think How ashamed I am For treating her this way Hatred, Ire, dark in my soul Devouring me, I lost control I've done you wrong and put you down I'm fed up with what I've become Never did she deserve the pain I put her through My desperate search for attention drove me to Hurt this so delicate little thing Which I trampled on and tore apart deliberately Could you ever bring yourself to forgive me for The suffering I've caused you The things I've said to hurt you I wouldn't blame you if you really couldn't though Jealousy got the best of me Understand that I'm sorry Why did you pick her over me And let me become this beast The scars I left are way too deep There is no excuse for what I did Remember that one Christmas eve I despised the way you decorated the tree I called you useless and so worthless Every name in the book of hatred I am no brother let us face it These words are a knife with which you got stabbed with I don't deserve for you to call me family Seven years of tyranny and hate (Seven years of tyranny and hate) I never behaved like I loved you my sibling You may cut me out it's not too late Could you ever bring yourself to forgive me for The suffering I've caused you The things I've said to hurt you I wouldn't blame you if you really couldn't though Jealousy got the best of me Understand that I'm sorry Why did you pick her over me And let me become this beast The scars I left are way too deep There is no excuse for what I did