Knife's Edge

I am so drained, I call out and I can't hear your name My pulse through the roof Was this all in vain? Hot flashes, cold sweats Where will I find you next? Thoughts flood into my head I've woken up to an empty bed Hot flashes, cold sweats Where will I find you next? thoughts flood into my head Please don't tell me you left me here again Just don't go back there again Walking on a knifes edge To keep the blades at bay Hoping for a time that they'd just crack and rust away Silence makes the mind wander Distance makes the body weak Tell me you're alright Please be safe Always within reach but never close enough Always within reach but I'm never fast enough I've watched a soul bleed out Over and over I felt my soul bleed out I can't go on And as I rode with you in the back of the ambulance I stopped and I thought Will I ever see you again Will you ever open your fucking eyes Each step I take is a balancing act A reoccurring spate of heart attacks Expecting the worst to come Hoping you find the strength to carry on Knife's edge Knife's edge I still remember every word you said Knife's edge Knife's edge The weight is lifted along with all the dread I was so drained You wear your scars but you're still here breathing My pulse is subdued This was not in vain