Nightmare

All I'm seeing is red I'm caught inside of my head I need to learn how to let go and just take a breath This demon inside me Is vicious and frightening No remorse for the ones I love Will he feed again? Will I let him in? Paralysed I'm living with a nightmare Tearing apart my loved ones, I know it's not fair Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken Is it all part of a nightmare? I'm wide awake, but not in control Seems too overwhelming To shake free from his hold I feel weak at the knees But I'm tired of losing sleep The only way I'll break free Fight the nightmare fighting me I tried to kill myself December 17th (What's come of me?) The person that I once was almost got the better of me I'm paralysed I'm living with a nightmare Tearing apart my loved ones, I know it's not fair Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken I hope you know, you brought out the worst in me I push you all away To keep my mind at ease The nightmare comes and takes my strength I feel I'm caving in I'm lost within my thoughts Death's come to collect my soul The reaper looks and turns away It's now a story to be told Paralysed I'm living with a nightmare Tearing apart my loved ones, I know it's not fair Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken I can't go living the way I feel When you have put me through so much hell The thought of heaven is so unreal When I've been living through so much hell