Burdened

Nothing feels right I'm always constantly searching for a reason to stay alive Time after time The depression grabs a hold of me and carves me with a fucking knife Things will never change, I've always been this way I'm just a byproduct of young life gone to waste Things will never change, I've always been this way I'm just a dead man walking You fucking coward Eternal suffering, forever pained Why do I always have to feel this way? Every day just feels the same Always searching for a feeling that I will never regain I've spent my life wallowing in misery Washed up, lifeless, drowning in my apathy Years have been spent building up a hardened shell Fighting losing battles, and yet still, no one can ever tell This is Hell I am just a fucking waste Dead to a world that never cared for me A soulless being I never feel a thing Dead to a world, a world that never fucking cared for me Disassociation. The burden of a heavy mind Decomposing while my body still stays alive Rotting away. Still staying the same I'm just counting down the minutes 'til I reach my final day Just fucking end it all Withering into nothing as My mind slips into a haze Misery develops into twisted senses of normality And I could use the company But some things never change Forever burdened Forever drained