Not My Time

It was the first time that I realised life's not what it seems It's a vicious game of chase your tail and everything in between I gave it all and gave it life I gave myself and sacrificed I took the chances most would envy and I ended up paying the price If I could take my turn again I'd end up doing it all the same I'd still end up in the gutter of self-pity, pain and shame There ain't no way to save me now I've made my choice And I've made it proud I'll keep the black dog off my back And keep him in his cage And it's not my time And it's not my your life, your gonna share Yeah it's not my time I've made excuses that are fake, to break the promises I've made to myself and to my dreams I've tried to procreate Just when you think the stars align, just when you think It is your time you need to take the ball And kick it right through your tortured mind I've learned to live with my mistakes I've learned to mend a heart that breaks And fight the never-ending battle that rages every day If this war inside subsides and the demons they retire I'll be a shell of a reflection in the mirror late at night And it's not my time And it's not my life, your gonna share It's not my time, for you to be with me And it's not my time And it's not my life, your gonna share It's not my time So stand with me and raise your voice Take your chances make your choice If there is one thing that I've learned it's don't fake your way through life There ain't no change without revolt, there ain't no questions you can't solve If you think it's all too hard then why'd you break the mold There is a reason that your here, there is a reason we evolved You need to take that thought and stick it right in your mortal soul Life's not going to give you roses, life is going to give you pain And if you sit down in the gutter it'll kick you till in your insane And it's not my time And it's not my life, your gonna share It's not my time, and it's not my time for you to be with me It's not my time, for you to be with me