Demons of Our Memory

Sometimes I feel the world is testing me Ivory, Ebony, we all feel it eventually Endlessly, fighting the Demons of Our Memory I'm trying stop you from stealing my energy Self medicating, but don't really have a remedy And they don't always see through all the things that I pretend to be In need of therapy, can be my own worst enemy So if you haven't heard from me... check on my mentally The Fugees once said, everybody wears a mask I didn't understand it, at the time I was too young to know I was in for surprises, I got to see ironically To deal with reality, people wear disguises For some it's drugs, others alcoholism I can't diss em', we all got a coping mechanism Sex, food, television, whats the best decision? But we never living, when we hide the pessimism I love it when you smile and laugh, but I know you are surpressing hurt from your past Suffering in silence Some about to break or crack I tell my brothers I love em and they don't need to say it back I state a fact I think is necessary My care is better than any fix that is temporary That's elementary from the cradle to the cemetery Somebodies mental health should never be secondary Sometimes I feel the world is testing me Ivory, Ebony, we all feel it eventually Endlessly, fighting the Demons of Our Memory I'm trying stop you from stealing my energy Self medicating, but don't really have a remedy And they don't always see through all the things that I pretend to be In need of therapy, can be my own worst enemy So if you haven't heard from me... check on my mentally Shonuff, dudes think they so tough But brothers got it twisted thinking it's feminine to show love Now we have a void and I am annoyed Cause I can't tell if you hating or if I'm paranoid Blurred vision, listen it can be stressful You living in a prison if you driven to be successful But really you staying busy just to hide the pain I'm certain the burden comes if you always working Pass the surface, what I'm writing is deep Today I read about a Dad whose Son died in his sleep We all leave alone like we begun But now this Dad wishes he had more time with his Son I look at myself, my mind I had to air it out Sometimes we have to reasses the things we care about With that said I'm not asking to be forgiven But I am saying sorry to you if I was ever trippin' listen Sometimes I feel the world is testing me Ivory, Ebony, we all feel it eventually Endlessly, fighting the Demons of Our Memory I'm trying stop you from stealing my energy Self medicating, but don't really have a remedy And they don't always see through all the things that I pretend to be In need of therapy, can be my own worst enemy So if you haven't heard from me... check on my mentally To calm anxiety I roll a spliff While my imagination creating enemies that don't exist Bringing problems home from work to me is insanity I try not to take it out on my family Everybody got a lot on the brain When we argue in front of the kids, I feel shame A lot of people don't deal with they pain And they hurt looking for someone to blame Simple and plain, Me, I'm not a specialist But its clear to me, that some of us need a therapist Throat Chakra blocked, so we lack expressiveness Crying for help, without crying at all Ya'll caught up in your own lives and don't see the signs We not psychics and so we not reading minds I'm just saying if there's one love, theres one war We fighting together check on the people you got love for Sometimes I feel the world is testing me Ivory, Ebony, we all feel it eventually Endlessly, fighting the Demons of Our Memory I'm trying stop you from stealing my energy Self medicating, but don't really have a remedy And they don't always see through all the things that I pretend to be In need of therapy, can be my own worst enemy So if you haven't heard from me... check on my mentally