Childhood

Regardless of anythin' happenin' at all Daddy's temper was outta control Livin' in constant fear Why you gotta be so harsh my dear Don't forget grandma was half Turkish Genes play a part, kept a sweet dish Grandpa was focused on writin' his books Only really bothered with economics Never really thought I'd be writin' hooks Problems trickle down like Reaganomics Balance is key, comes with a fee Life ain't all about makin' money Paper ain't ever take care of honey Try to play me, sting you like a bee EpiPen costly, cuz nothin' is free Yeah They'll tell you time heals But I'm 25 & still tryna deal Don't bottle up your trauma It'll bubble up like lava I know I was tested for a reason Hope my art leads to freedom Growin' up feelin' all alone Parents were not really home Older brotha never wanted me to tag along Lacked affection since I was born Had a house maid with the name of Mariam Cared for me as her son every day Never wanted me to go astray Only wanted me to lead the way What can I say Blessed to have had a lovin' lady like her Yelgo7 was cryin' outta hunger, life is a blur Mommy was gettin' chemo in Frankfurt Time to pick up mommy at the airport A couple bags of Fubo for the kids Who shops during cancer treatment, momma Mona sure did Allah yerhamha They'll tell you time heals But I'm 25 & still tryna deal Don't bottle up your trauma It'll bubble up like lava I know I was tested for a reason Hope my art leads to freedom On an odd numbered Ramadan night Mommy's breathin' got super tight Hungry for air like an ischemic Metastatic cancer is systemic Doctors at sight, not lookin' bright Invasive approach put an end to a life What did I do to deserve this fate Felt like I never wanna live till late God's plan divine, her soul risen high Told myself I gotta survive Writin' just to stay alive Time to shift gears, tackle them fears It's okay to shed some tears Don't be searchin' hard for the one What if you're the chosen one Always in it for the long run Workin' till it's all said & done Yeah