Hidden Agenda

You chose to disregard That which you'd heard Of his cruel heart You fell for his façade Cause you thought you'd heal his scars He was the only one around In your bubble you vicinity Tried to lure him And you gave yourself Temporarily but willingly Oh a shortcut, to comfort Might seem real but it's not genuine A brag and a boast and a cover For the guilt you felt within But it's my choice to make My life you don't dictate My words to say My body my way Don't try and hide it just- say Don't you think you can leave it alone Leave it alone and my- brain Why do you intrigue me so Ah yeah ay It's my choice to- make If you think that I'm leading you on Leading you on well then hey A lack of subtlety With a taste of prying eyes A judgement of a choice With feelings planted inside They say that he's no good Yet familiarity lingers Oh I know how stepping back From comfort leaves a hole You never have to feel alone Without him oh you'll see you've grown With friends around who teach you how to know Please know that I'm here for you Please know we're all here for you But you just need to know That it's your choice to make Your life you don't dictate Discovery awaits Your body your way Don't try and hide it just- say Don't you think you can leave it alone Leave it alone and my- brain Why do you intrigue me so Ah yeah ay It's my choice to- make If you think that I'm leading you on Leading you on well then hey If you're with me Then be with me Cause I can tell when you're gone Cause I don't wanna be with you Ooh no more I can tell when you're gone Cause what's wrong with wanting more It's innately within us its how we've evolved Yet my heart, my heart knows What is the path to practice self improvement And do we really gain anything but angst From striving to aspire to something higher? Cause all I feel is the pain and the endless struggle Of choosing a choice I didn't even know I had within me So for now I'll have to stay In this run down home With a dumbed down lover Who'll never turn this house into a home And what a learning curve this is to become I've learned how much a jaw can ache From a lack of control Replaced by a hazy misunderstanding soul And I've learnt the art of compromise I've learnt to smile and gawp with a smile That'll never find it's way towards my eyes And I've learnt for the sake A hope of give and take I've learnt to choke back tears and years of small mistakes Each leading towards sentiment So for now I'll choose to stay In this run down home With a dumbed down lover Who'll never turn this house into a home Hey! Don't you think you can leave it alone Leave it alone and my- brain Why do you intrigue me so It's my choice to- make If you think that I'm leading you on Leading you on well then hey