Pills & Good Advice

On my first day out, my familiar town Felt the same as in my dreams Crying in my sleep, when the sun came down Thinking "I am cured, it seems," but I don't know my name at all But what else is new Should I show my pain at all? If you only knew You could try to help Care is imprecise All that I have left Pills and good advice (I need to steal something) (I need to feel something) (I need to dream something) (I need to be something) (I need to get better) (I got to get better) (I used to be better) (But I could never be them again) Cure me if you can Say I'll be okay I don't mind if it's a lie I can burn this bridge It could be today But you'd know the reason why (Where are you right now?) Please hold me down Please let me drown Please hold me down Please let me drown I know that something's missing Or rather, something else is there I spend the day existing You spend it being unaware The times I wake up smiling Feel like I'm making fun of you I left the ER crying So what's the use in trying now? Please let me down Don't let me drown Please let me down Don't let me drown I need to steal something I need to feel something I need to dream something I need to be something I need to get better I got to get better I used to be better But I could never be them again I need a sign and I'll be fine The straighter the line, the more it's manmade Circles confine us by design But at least the 3D printer's handmade I need a sine and I'll be fine The straighter the line, the more it's manmade Circles confine us by design But at least the 3D printer's handmade I've been building off of you I've been texting on the freeway just to talk to you And I know you wouldn't want me to But I know if any later, you won't follow through Yeah And I have noticed you've had it hard Even since the attack And I would take you up to the stars If I knew you'd be back And I have noticed you've had it hard Even since the attack And I would take you up to the stars If I knew you'd be back (Middle-ay, middle-ay o) (Middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o) (Middle-ay, middle-ay o) (Middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o) (Middle-ay, middle-ay o) (Middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o) (Middle-ay, middle-ay o) (Middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o) (Middle-ay, middle-ay o) (Middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o) (Middle-ay, middle-ay o) (Middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o) (Middle-ay, middle-ay o) (Middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o) (Middle-ay, middle-ay o) (Middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay middle-ay o) And even though I know it's been hard I could never go back If everything were better Then I'm sure I'd be A little less emotional I never really understood What's wrong with me Or why I'm unapproachable But every time I close my eyes You're lookin' quite like my mirror I'm plagiarizing everything Stuttering soliloquies Who am I again? (Who are you again?) Is this the storm before the calm? Is it the clock or just the ticking of the bomb? We sacrifice what we both need But if I fight for you then how do we proceed? And if you fight for me then how do we proceed? And if we fight again then how do we proceed? I've been building off of you I've been texting on the freeway just to talk to you And I know you wouldn't want me to But I know if any later, you won't follow through Yeah I've been building off of you I've been texting on the freeway just to talk to you And I know you wouldn't want me to So now I'm telling 'em Do you understand? Do you understand? Do you understand? 'Cause right now, doesn't seem like you can Start to climb, and then I get a little higher I'm a coward, it don't matter what I do (Higher) From "I can't do it anymore" to "I can't do it, I can't do it," Told myself I wanna die So how am I supposed to prove it now? Spend too many of my minutes getting higher I've attempted way too much to even count (Higher) I've been committed, but committed to the people that I love And if I try to love myself, I guess that I could live forever crying So don't cry for me For I've found peace in the madness Peace in the madness Don't cry for me For I've found peace in the madness Peace in the madness Again (Don't cry for me) (For I've found peace in the madness) (Peace in the madness) (Don't cry for me) (For I've found peace in the madness) (Peace in the madness) For now But on my last day out Let me scream to God Family, friends, and enemies So what happens next? Is this what you want? All I am is dead to me So I can't hear my voice at all What was I to do? Did I have a choice at all? Seems I never do You could try to help Care is imprecise All that I'd have left Pills and good advice I could try to heal Care is imprecise All that you'd have left Pills and good advice