Chasing Apparitions

This is the story of the days I died If only I had listened and swallowed my pride I waited for the darkest of nights To try and find my way out of this alive I should've tried To breathe in deep with my broken lungs Forcing this hyperpnea I'm trading sentiment for surrogate skin again I'm still sinking Deeper into despair We live and die on borrowed time With paradise behind our eyes If only we knew the distance Between salvation and misery This is the story of the days I died If only you had listened or taken the time? I'd tell myself that I'll be fine But my back breaks under the weight I carry Losing more in life than death We're always losing more in life than death I should've known this was my fate A calloused heart and an early grave I tried to talk to god To find the strength inside of me We live and die on borrowed time With paradise behind our eyes If only we knew the distance Between salvation and misery You asked me if Hell was real I said look at the world around me It feels like every night I'm sipping cyanide Just to find paradise that lives inside us all Losing more in life than death We're always losing more in life than death We live and die on borrowed time With paradise behind our eyes If only we knew the distance Between salvation and misery We'll never know the price we pay Composing our dying days Chasing apparitions Who are never reaching back for us Losing more in life than death We're always losing more In life than death