Backwards

All my life I've been my favorite enemy Knocked myself out with my own anxiety And I was breaking the gate Always running late Swimming in a hole; all those nights put a weight on me (Didn't need it) Gave myself these bruised and blacked out eyes before Tried to reach my high, but only cracked the floor Couldn't stand alone Skin with no bones Walking on a piece of a broken memory Gotta stop myself from Going backwards Going backwards Why didn't I try doing that before? I don't wanna go on back Four corners in the ropes, and I got no shade Punch a hole in this heart attack I don't wanna be that way Gotta tell myself, "relax" Running, but I'm going backwards Backwards Oh Handling all these stacks Twelve rounds and the timer's coming at me Gotta keep my brain intact I don't wanna feel halfway Gotta let myself relax Running, but I'm going backwards Backwards (Oh) Used to think that I was better on my own Your lips met mine, and now your face is my home Couldn't date a friend I was wrong and then Knock on the door It was like you were sent for me (And I need it) We close our eyes together; time for me to change Not only for you, but so we'll both have better days Your mouth is my drug But I know I'm enough My mind pulls the rug, but it won't get under me Gotta stop myself from Going backwards Going backwards Why didn't I try doing that before? I don't wanna go on back Four corners in the ropes, and I got no shade Punch a hole in this heart attack I don't wanna be that way Gotta tell myself, "relax" Running, but I'm going backwards Backwards Oh Handling all these stacks Twelve rounds and the timer's coming at me Gotta keep my brain intact I don't wanna feel halfway Gotta let myself relax Running, but I'm going backwards Backwards Handling all these stacks Twelve rounds and the timer's coming at me Gotta keep my brain intact I don't wanna feel halfway Gotta let myself relax Running, but I'm going backwards Backwards