Where I Used To Be

I think I've been in denial Lately it's been hard to breathe People tell me that they love me Nothing they say I believe Maybe I've been burnt out Maybe I should slow down I tried to let go It feels like I'm alone I hold onto myself now I could lay outside for hours At least I'm getting sleep I'm not where I wanna be but thank God I'm not where I used to be I've been so close to dying But I'm still in one piece I'm not where I wanna be but thank God I'm not where I used to be Feels like I move in slow motion Some things look grey in my eyes At least I feel some emotion I only feel numb sometimes Maybe I've been burnt out I tried so hard to slow down Can't fix it on my own Man I feel so alone I could really use a hug now I could lay outside for hours At least I'm getting sleep I'm not where I wanna be but thank God I'm not where I used to be I've been so close to dying But I'm still in one piece I'm not where I wanna be but thank God I'm not where I used to be Time likes testing me But I keep protesting I'm just tryna get some space Let it fly over my head If I'm pulled under the sea If I get struck by lightning At least I can say that I know that I tried my best I know I tried my best I scroll online for hours Some nights I hardly sleep I'm not where I wanna be but thank God I'm not where I used to be I'm not afraid of crying I'm barely in one piece I'm not where I wanna be but thank God I'm not where I used to be