Will I Always Feel This Way?

I'm crying in my car For the fourth time today Told my friends things were better But that was yesterday Cause now the weather's got me down I'm tryna think of a way to explain Where I've been And why my laugh doesn't sound the same Oh, will I always feel this way? Will I always feel this way? Walk through the doors and I'm good Wear a smile like I should Wipe the tears from my face Tell everybody things are so great But will I always feel this way? There's nothing left to do But talk to myself in the backseat About how I think I'm going crazy And there won't be anyone to save me When I've had enough of the view Grown bored of the city behind me Can't run from the person I'm becoming Or the guilt that's consuming And I've tried everything Quit my job And spent all my money Cut my hair three times last week Couldn't make myself happy Oh, will I always feel this way? Will I always feel this way? Walk through the doors and I'm good Wear a smile like I should Wipe the tears from my face Tell everybody things are so great But will I always feel this way? Too caught up in my head to stop now I'm in the back seat of my car passed out Are these the moments coming of age movies talk about? Cause it's not pretty to watch the world you built crash down Oh, will I always feel this way? Will I always feel this way? Walk through the doors and I'm good Wear a smile like I should Wipe the tears from my face Tell everybody things are so great But will I always feel this way?