Through Mirrors (I Didn't Want You As A Mirror)

You know, there's a point where looking for answers Becomes more of a habit and less of a comfort I checked all the locks in my house and then it flooded I know they say that possessions can be replaced But why are photographs so effective? Are memories made collecting or collected? Not to complain but sometimes it gets depressing How almost your entire skillset is investments your parents made Almost 20 years before they knew who you'd want to be I know it's petty but I'd love to be reimbursed For all those extra years you get to spend with her Cause I didn't have the tools or words at the time To articulate a complex situation I didn't want you as a mirror Because I only saw myself from my own perspective Where I could frame any affection as penance If I could do it all again, I'd probably just make different mistakes In new and almost impressive ways So I don't dwell too much on who I was at the start It's still growth if it's growing apart I scavenged most of my discernible traits Off the corpse of someone who looked a lot like me And I don't think I'm as ashamed of that as I should be Cause I never paid too much attention to how it all panned out for him He's gone now, and I've got to live with it You were kept like literature Like a catalog or scripture To be picked up, and quoted, and put back down You were kept like literature Like a catalog or scripture Like a diary left out Not learned from, just learned about I didn't want you as a mirror Because I only saw myself from my own perspective Where I could frame any affection as penance If I could do it all again, I'd probably just make different mistakes In new and almost impressive ways So I don't dwell too much on who I was at the start It's still growth if it's growing apart