Texas

She lives her life based on regrets She takes the moment things might have been different And holds them tight to her chest She never lets go No she'll never let go He, he never looks back on past days He takes his memories and locks them up He can't relive those moments he felt ashamed He can't get stuck He thinks I'm stuck And I'm in the middle thinking What if I had stayed in Texas What if I had raised my brothers What if I worked harder in high school, turned out like my mother What if I never came to Boston What if I stayed in the closet Would I have stayed as sane as I have managed, or Would I have lost it, and Would they still think of me like this They will always be my biggest what if The first time that I got a chance I hopped that plane Now I'm singing out my window searching for something that feels like grace I've been so lost Will I be found Is this home now What if I had stayed in Texas What if I had raised my brothers What if I worked harder in high school, turned out like my mother What if I never came to Boston What if I stayed in the closet Would I have stayed as sane as I have managed, or Would I have lost it, and Would they still think of me like this They will always be my biggest what if I haven't seen the stars in nights So is it wrong that this place still feels so right When I look into the sky and I see are high rises I feel like a cowboy in this big city tonight And for just one more moment I'll let the thoughts fly through my mind What if I had stayed in Texas What if I had raised my brothers What if I worked harder in high school, turned out like my mother What if I never came to Boston What if I stayed in the closet Would I have stayed as sane as I have managed, or Would I have lost it, and Would they still think of me like this They will always be my biggest what if