Memories

This magic moment So different and so new But like any other Until I kissed you And then it happened It took me by surprise I knew that you felt it too By the look in your eyes My dearest Emily My condolence to your family I tried and tried apologizing But no one's understanding me It's funny when you think about it I came across you randomly It's crazy what this life can be It's almost like a fantasy It wasn't what was planned to be Got caught up in the moment Sometimes I feel this rage I can't explain and can't control it It's like mentally I'm frozen Then emotionally I'm broken Losing touch with my reality But spiritually awoken, you know I remember back when I would contemplate the pain I felt I would sit for hours Try my hardest to contain myself Living with this darkness like an artist I could paint my Hell Verbally expressin' my aggression Till I hate myself Went from trying to erase it To dying to embrace it Been fighting to ignore it Until I finally couldn't take it This energy is racing Off a memory I'm chasing It's time we got together And confront what I've been facing This magic moment So different and so new But like any other Until I kissed you And then it happened It took me by surprise I knew that you felt it too By the look in your eyes Here we go I can't believe its come to this I always tried to run from it I never got the closure From the pain inside that comes with it I'm not the man I used to be Depressions been abusing me The pressure starts to lessen When I vent about it truthfully When people see the smile They account it for a happiness They don't take the time to learn your mind and know what's happening They can run and hide Behind their perfect lives I'm glad for them Suffering in silence While they die inside I'm sad for them There was a special love of mine We met when we were younger Her name was Sara Harrison I was best friends with her brother Perfection by comparison Unique from any other She laughed right in my face the day I told her that I love her Ever since then I've been working towards This perfect love I'm searching for It never seems to happen for me I always end up hurting more Maybe it's a sign or fate Or maybe I can find a way Of making Sara love me For the man that I've become today This magic moment So different and so new But like any other Until I kissed you And then it happened It took me by surprise I knew that you felt it too By the look in your eyes Dear Sara This could be the night for us We finally get a moment To decide the perfect life for us So I was thinking A big house with a swing and Two chairs on the porch So you can hear birds while they're singing I lived out everyday As if I knew that we were meant to be I framed all of your photos Just to show you what you meant to me Ended things with others Cause I knew one day eventually You would learn to love me Now I'm clinging to it desperately But when I tried to show you how I felt You wouldn't listen You're not the girl you used to be It felt like something's missing You're attitude was different Just like those other women Like you're the one that's going thru this Hurt I fucking lived it I thought I made it easy for you Now you wanna leave me do you I gave you every ounce until my heart and Soul were bleeding for you If this is how it ends I tried my best to share my love with you But now you're dead to me You're dead to everyone We're done with you This magic moment While your lips are close to mine Will last forever Forever til' the end of time Magic moment Magic moment