Death Is a Relief

Come and light the fire from every end When our hands look old, when we smile at death When the stars blur out, when our families die (will you think of me?) Will I be there still? Will you still see me? I am an ugly root Knotting itself out of life I want to breathe fire I want to grind my teeth into dust I was alive, now I lie On my back in the dark, wounds opening up In a meadow clearing, head turned Smoke white pouring from my eyes Drip me dry, feeding the earth She deserves it more, should have spared her better Wish I had more to give, if I could find myself, if I knew it then Like you saw me now, I could hold you like you needed me to It feels like I'm left behind Watch how I'm eroding Every time I'm all claw Guilty for every rotting thought It feels like I'm left behind You deserve the world I'm bleeding ash and tar Never waking, I am guilty for it all