Sadboi Blues

I kinda hate myself and I'm not quite full of love,

But somehow I get greeted with a smile and a hug.

I'm a child chasing rainbows and I can't seem to cohere,

And I can only vaguely tell you what I am doing here

I'm just rolling around.

Just can't figure it out.

I don't lie on first dates but I'll certainly omit

All the things that make me feel like I'm a piece of shit.

If you love me I will fight you if I love you I won't let go,

But if you ask me where I'll be soon expect that I won't know.

I'm just rolling around.

Just can't figure it out.

I'm just hanging around.

Just can't seem to get out.

I go outside my house but not outside my head,

And I don't see an outcome where we don't all end up dead.

Don't know if I should fight it or just try to live my life,

But no matter what I do I just can't feel right.

I'm just rolling around.

Just can't figure it out.

I'm just hanging around.

Just can't straighten it out.