To Dust

Yes I called out your name But you just didn't care I drove for miles and miles and wound up just fallen on the floor I guess I acted tame It's just you scare me when you're there Cause I've practiced speeches on speeches to walls that don't end all in tears Laughter, and crowding her for hours turned to dust Cause my decision settled in her blood I guess we've learned what you'd call "just a little" But I say that bit accounts for quite a lot I promise it's the truth that I'm committal But I get why you can't trust me from the start It's worse than bad I set the bar Then broke your heart The worst part is that I still have mine But it has no use if yours died It's called self sabotage It murdered all the odds Of you trusting in me and me trusting that you'll call the shots I'm scared that you won't try Why would you fucking try Am I really selfish enough to share feelings I tortured you by Laughter, and crowding her for hours turned to dust Cuz my decision settled in her blood I guess we've learned what you'd call "just a little" But I say that bit accounts for quite a lot I promise it's the truth that I'm committal But I get why you can't trust me from the start It's worse than bad I set the bar Then broke your heart The worst part is that I still have mine But it has no use if your Gone from my life Forever this time You know I thought what I did would be good in the end They say don't fix what ain't broke I thought that line was a joke But I never would've tried if I knew it meant that you'd despise me forever But now you're saying that we've fixed what broke a little And I say that little counts more than you know The truth is I'm just scared that I belittled The idea of a future months ago It's worse than bad I set the bar Then broke your heart The worst part is that I still have mine But it has no use if yours died