Party Politics

Tryna break down these walls I built around me Drying my eyes with shadow before I leave Deciding the version of me that i'm wearing Making up for time I lost when I was a kid If i don't go what if he finds somebody Who can keep up with the way he talks the talk Pretending to like the people around me And I hate the host but I stayed cuz I'm lonely Drink this potion for the brave Hoping it keeps me awake Bring me something good Magic take the pain away Cloud it up, numb my brain Keep me dancing with the moon Playing games With lovers and strangers Make-believing that i'm alive Don't wanna wake up Feel the rush From fighting the tears on the neon dance floor Moving to the beat of my anxious heart Blowing ash and scratching my throat By the garden light Spilling secrets, making pacts that last the night Imaginging all the whispers about me Cuz my mind can't handle the politics of this party Lips and tongues are pairing up Hands are finding friends to touch Am I good enough On the outside looking in Take a breath, have a sip Convince myself that we're in love Playing games With lovers and strangers Make-believing that i'm alive Don't wanna wake up Feel the rush From fighting the tears on the neon dance floor Moving to the beat of my anxious heart Take my fear, don't leave me behind Please don't leave me alone with my mind Minds and bodies shuffling Cloudy lungs are whispering Pretending we're alright Is my future self fulfilled Write this story in a pill Take it and complete the night Playing games With lovers and strangers Make-believing that i'm alive Don't wanna wake up Feel the rush From fighting the tears on the neon dance floor Moving to the beat of my anxious heart Take my fear, don't leave me behind Please don't leave me alone with my mind Take my fear, don't leave me behind Please don't leave me alone with my mind Take my fear, don't leave me behind Please don't leave me alone with my mind Take my fear, don't leave me behind Please don't leave me alone with my mind