Disguise

Always feel too much, too fast If I love harder Will I feel something back? If I pull harder Will you bite and lash? What if I really listened When you told me you were bad? Up four days, pressure cracking Lip service while you're laughing Cursing me when I tried to save you Hurting me with the love I gave you Let you in, I was off of the oxy-tocin in my blood Even stronger than poppies Everything you did You did it to spite me You say you're gonna change But it's fucking unlikely 48 hours for a one-word reply I'm alone in my room While your hands are on her thighs I don't know how I was so surprised Should've known I was only talking to your disguise To your disguise To your disguise Crushing up pills, serotonin splash Press send on panic in paragraphs Blank pixels I am tracing Electric waste erasing Up four days, pressure cracking Lip service while you're laughing Cursing me when I tried to save you Hurting me with the love I gave you Let you in, I was off of the Oxytocin in my blood Even stronger than poppies Everything you did, You did it to spite me You say you're gonna change But it's fucking unlikely 48 hours for a one-word reply I'm alone in my room While your hands are on her thighs I don't know how I was so surprised Should've known I was only talking to your disguise To your disguise To your disguise How could I be so goddamn stupid? Kept my mouth shut While you got abusive Putting me down Just to say I'm useless Lied through your teeth There are no excuses