歌词
[Verse 1]
I don't remember the first time
But I think I survived
Probably better not try to recall
'Cause it feeds it, yeah, it keeps it alive
[Verse 2]
There are specific things
That I have to do
Day to day just to keep it at bay
You wouldn't believe if you knew
[Verse 3]
(Oh, no, this isn't real)
(Oh) Here's a little secret, here's the best part
(No) This is going to take me
Right back to the start
(This isn't real) If I can hear it
If it's out of mind
Wait until it settles
Come try it a second time
[Verse 4]
I don't remember the first time
But I think I survived
Probably better not try to recall
'Cause it feeds it, yeah, it keeps it alive
[Verse 5]
(Oh, no) Yeah
(This isn't real)
[Verse 6]
(Oh) Here's a little secret
(No) here's the best part
This is gonna take me
Right back to the start
(This isn't real) If I can hear it
If it's out of mind
Wait until it settles
Come try it a second time
[Verse 7]
I can feel it loom
Up into my head
It is in the room
Panic in my head
I feel it coming on
Taking over view
Oh, please, not tonight
There's nothing I can do
[Verse 8]
This is bigger than me
This is in my fear
This is pitiful
I just disappear
Swells up all around me
Swallowed up inside
Sell my senses if it
Would make this subside
[Verse 9]
I can barely handle
I can pass the time
Staring through the curtains
Up into the sky
Where there is no depth perception
Keep preoccupied, self deception
Nobody recognizes, it doesn't have a name
My brother is infected, he's acting just the same
Screaming like a siren, up and down the hall
He just wants to stop it, he wants to end it all
[Verse 10]
I am just a child, I am nothing more
Than the basic function I am running from
I curl up and wallow my distortion
Everything is disproportioned
[Verse 11]
Suddenly I wake
All is back again
Everything is closer
Morning is the same
And I can't hear it
It's way out of mind
I will just forget this
Till the next time
Written by: Aaron Short, Alisa Xayalith, Thomas Powers
