Better Life

I just turned 21 when I gave away my son

That's a pain I won't forget

To have him ripped right from my chest

In my heart

I knew it was the on;y thing to do

But he grew inside my womb

And his leaving was my tomb

Those were the cloudy days

I keep trying to outrace

I had to break the cycle

Didn't want to be the same

As my parents were before me

Well that's just how they were raised

I did the best I could

I did what I thought was right

I hope he'll forgive me

For wanting to give him a better life

Don't tell me how it is

Don't tell me how it was

Don't tell me you know how I feel

Don't tell me it's not love

Cause if it's not love

I don't know what is

Every single birthday

Oh I'd drink the day away

Trying to forget that he was ever made

I just wanna hold him

Take back all those years

He didn't call me mother

And I didn't wipe his tears

I did the best I could

I did what I thought was right

I hope he'll forgive me

For wanting to give him a better life

Don't tell me how it is

Don't tell me how it was

Don't tell me you know how I feel

Don't tell me it's not love

Cause if it's not love

I don't know what is

And I never went to town

Till all the swelling had gone down

My soul was wrecked

My arms were free

I tried to find him

He didn't want to find me

I did the best I could

I did what I thought was right

I hope he'll forgive me

For wanting to give him a better life

Don't tell me how it is

Don't tell me how it was

Don't tell me you know how I feel

Don't tell me it's not love

If it's not love

I don't know what is