Chasm (feat. Convictions)

What do you mean to me? You are in my life leeching and begging Should I have empathy when you mean nothing to me? I built this life, all you do is waste my time You will never be me or amount to anything You will never be me I can pretend like I care for a time Put a smile on my face as I mock on the inside I see the truth I'll ignore and justify Convince myself I'm good inside Hide it to the day I die What do you expect from me? You'll get no empathy I will never be I don't want to be like you Do you know, do you care what is waiting for you? I'll keep my head down Don't pretend to see me now Look into my eyes We aren't so different after all You were never there only acted like you cared You saw me broken, now you can't relieve the torment My only ask was that you spare me just a little bit The pride in your life, and you can't see it It's only for yourself, why can't you realize? Motives are stained with hate Mocking me until the day you die The chasm's far too wide Our places have been changed You want to be me Even if the dead rise You will never believe Even if the dead rise you will never believe What choice will I make? They stare me in the face Contemplating all I've done Will this be my fate? What choice will I make? They stare me in the face Contemplating everything I don't know if I can change What have I done? I am wrong What have i done? Is it too late? What do you expect from me? Give me some empathy I will never be, I don't want to be like you Do you know, do you care what is waiting for you? I'll keep my head down, don't pretend to see me now Look into my eyes, we are so different after all If I had only known this would be my fate Would my mind change? Or is it too late? If I had only known, would I believe? What have I done? What have I done? If I had only known this would be my fate Could I choose differently or would I not care? Is it too late for me to decide? Which one am I? What am I?