Nowadays

Situations that I've been through made me feel so evil

I regret to inform you I wasn't always truthful

I was lying to my heart the pain that hurts the most

I really hope you hear my message but I know you won't

Because you dodging and you ducking all the pain you feel

You so unbothered had to question if the pain was real

You've been so different I don't know if you waiting for change

But I've been waiting for your love so let's make an exchange

When we found each other we was at our lowest point

Shit was sweet for a while but I knew it wouldn't last

The way you left on my life I swear you came just as fast

No pun intended we was wild we would have a blast

I would ask you about your past and regret that I asked

I was high on my mind but you knew and took advantage

You told me about your other **** and went on a tangent

You told me so much information my brain couldn't manage

That was a damn bad moment my verses I confess

The pain was heavy with my sharing lifted off my chest

Shit was messed but listen I digress I wasn't even stressed

We could have been so much but then we broke up in a text

And if I really loved your ass I'd never let it rest

I spend all of my days explaining why we was the best

But that's not my style, not anymore

So let me tell you in these verses girl

Every night when we talking up on the phone

I feel like when I'm sharing shit

I'm always sharing shit alone

Trying to pour into your heart but it's hard cause it's always closed

I was doing it for a time and that's something that I regret

Store the pain inside my heart but it's beating right through my chest

Ignore my problems and my worth I don't take kind of disrespect

I don't talk about my problems this music is where I vent

If I'ma work off all my problems I might as well

Get a check That's where I'm at nowadays

I feel like people's favorite thing is cap Nowadays

That's where I'm at nowadays

Took a while to see the past and recognize the truth

If you leave without a reason don't come back with an excuse

I don't wanna hear it I don't really wanna hear your bullshit

Cause when I was talking to you I was never on that bullshit

Wow, I really felt like I was shot by Cupid's archer

That's why I was kinda hurt by your sudden recent departure

Yeah, I guess I won't get noticed till I got that check on me

There's plenty of days when **** never checked on me

They going around telling the crowd that we brothers and we cool

Acting like they was next to me I had to do this shit alone

That shit was all the time I never been that guy

I'm always gonna speak my mind I feel like when I'm in my room

I'm never wasting time

You think you giving me problems

Bitch, you just gave me rhymes

Every night when we talking up on the phone

I feel like when I'm sharing shit I'm always sharing shit alone

Tryna pour into your heart but it's hard cause it's always closed

I was doing it for time and that's something that I regret