RLS

I'll fail myself just one more time

Fuck

I'll fail myself just one more time

So I crush another pill and sail to heaven

I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again

Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead

Eyes closed, never asleep

Itching my skin can't believe this is me

Wasting away like I've wasted my time

Always pushing away those who value my life

(Hey)

I just don't feel right sometimes

I don't feel safe so I choose to spend another night on my own

(Ahh)

Didn't think that you'd ever get it

Never felt ok so I said man fuck it

Put my neck on the line kept my head in the clouds

And I saw that the weather was still shit

And now I'm up here fucked all alone

Just how I wanted to be, I'm alone

So I crawl to the bathroom, it's me in the mirror, I ask myself

'Who the fuck is this?'

Fuck

You've failed yourself just one more time

Dropped another pill and sailed to heaven

I don't feel like I'll ever be alive again

Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead

When what happens at home stays at home

Then you know there is no-one to see if your body is cold

And your lips are as blue as your soul

If your tongue is sunk in at the back of your throat

If the spasms were fun, if there's bile on the rug

If there's anything you could have done

All these questions I've asked myself over and over

Oh fuck this shit pass me the gun, I'm so done

I think it's time to kick this shit

I think I need out of this mess

But I know that I'll miss all the warmth

And the itch and the break from the stress

But one last time I roll the dice

Gamble again with my fucking life

I know that I've lost and I'll lose again

Lose again and again and again

I'll fail myself just one more time

So I crush another pill and sail to heaven

I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again

Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead

I'll fail myself just one more time

So I crush another pill and sail to heaven

I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again

Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead

I'll fail myself just one more time

So I crush another pill and sail to heaven

I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again

Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead

I'll fail myself just one more time

So I crush another pill and sail to heaven

I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again

Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead