So Many Lives (feat. Deuce)

I've lived so many

I've had so many

I'm sick of all the

I've lived so many

I fell with the lows, lost in the highs

All those memories lost inside

And the fear I hid wasn't hidden well

Cause the vice that I had straight drug me to hell

Never thought the thing that I needed

Would make a wasted place

My mind depleted

And I lost the will to fight and all my drive

Cause the power that I had was stripped inside

So low, nowhere to go

Inhale death, relief, my heart slows

Eyes closed, Tay on my side

Laying on my chest making sure I'm still alive

So low, nowhere to go

Inhale death, relief, my heart slows

Eyes closed, Tay on my side

Laying on my chest making sure I'm still alive

And if you had it then you get it

Won't relive it

Cause I had to get to zero

For a second chance on livin

I've reached my nine lives

Nine ways to be forgiven

From the evil I kept hidden

The disease good fuckin riddance

I'm free!

I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will take me away

Gone in a place that the words cannot escape

I've had so many tries I'm learning what I need to keep me away

Screaming at the walls for the thoughts I can't relay

I'm sick of all the lies I'm throwing everything I was away

Forgiven who I was at the grave of yesterday

I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will give me away

So sick with the pen, ain't no pretend

Every week in a brand new Benz

Brand new tens, brand new lens

Brand new rims, Armageddon

Not for god ain't making amends

Took my image, took my name

People know that you ain't my friend

I promise you will do it again

How you think it feels when the popo holds you down

Your career dead, bullet in the head

Took my name, took my image

That's a shame,

You should be laying in your coffin bed

Your girl, she be giving me head

Still no thief, still not dead

How I make these colors blend

Yeah I made this all to descend

These notes I know how to hem

Try to look but you can't see the gem

In my closet, in my head

See you another time again

Once I knew you that was then

Once I knew you that was when

I guess that's from what you said

I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will take me away

Gone in a place that the words cannot escape

I've had so many tries I'm learning what I need to keep me away

Screaming at the walls for the thoughts I can't relay

I'm sick of all the lies I'm throwing everything I was away

Forgiven who I was at the grave of yesterday

I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will give me away

Gone in a place that the words cannot escape

Screaming at the walls for the thoughts I can't relay

In my room I sit alone

These regrets I still own

Don't know where to go from here

Falling deeper in despair

You were here and now you're gone

And I don't know why it went so wrong

Your smile held a secret

Now I'm the one that keeps it

I lost a lot, you lost it all

As I slam my fist against the wall

I swear to go back and fix the past

But what's done is done, and that's a fact

No turning back and that's for real

I think I need to find a better way to deal

And I hope you know that I'll always remember

That walk in the dark that cold December

I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will take me away

Gone in a place that the words cannot escape

I've had so many tries I'm learning what I need to keep me away

Screaming at the walls for the thoughts I can't relay

I'm sick of all the lies I'm throwing everything I was away

Forgiven who I was at the grave of yesterday

I've lived so many lives I wonder if this one will give me away