This I Pray

Thank you, Jesus

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Nicky Gracious

First off, Lord thank you for my life

I thank you for my sin that you put out of your sight

Never thought that, that could happen

Father God, I'm so ashamed

Memories of what I did always rushing through my brain

It's hard to wrap my mind around how you could just forgive

Can't comprehend the fact that you would even let me live

You know all of the secrets I keep hidden in the dark

All the evil desires they keep on lurking in my heart

Lord, take it from me 'cause I hate it that I'm ugly

It's hard to talk to people

'Cause I know that they would judge me

They probably say I need to be locked up inside a cell

He's sick inside his head, and he ain't never gon' get well

They say that I should die

And that would probably be the truth

He ain't fit for society, his confession is the proof

So I keep it to myself 'cause I'm scared of what they'll say

I reveal myself to you 'cause I know you gon' make a way

This I pray, this I pray

If it's one thing you gon' do is make a way

That you lead me to a home where I could stay (this I pray)

That you hear me when I come to you with tears

And share the pain with you, I face throughout the years (this I pray)

This I pray, I ask you to kill me and then you did

You had to kill me so I could live, this I pray (this I pray)

Everything you show to me, I will remember

And that you love me even though I'm still a sinner (this I pray)

These voices in my head, you hear 'em too

They persecuting me and they persecuting you

Was diagnosed the paranoid schizophrenic

Tried taking the medicine, now I'm doing it organic

Ain't completely recovered but God, I'm trusting in your plan

You showed me your light and I put my life inside your hands

People think I'm crazy when I tell them what I've seen

Not the visions or the trances, ain't talking about the dreams

I'm talking about the Watchers Lord, I see 'em with my eyes

The way you showed me they were connected to my mind

Enlighten me father, I know you showed me for a reason

I picked up on a pattern, seen the signs of the season

And now I'm scared to death for all the souls of my people

Let them think that I'm crazy

The way you rescued them from evil

You handed me the keys and said, "Drive while you can"

I hope I don't crash, give me the strength to be a man

This I pray, this I pray

If it's one thing you gon' do is make a way

That you lead me to a home where I can stay (this I pray)

That you hear me when I come to you with tears

And share the pain with you, I face throughout the years this I pray (this I pray)

I asked you to kill me and then you did

You had to kill me so I could live, this I pray (this I pray)

Everything you showed to me, I will remember

And that you love me even though I'm still a sinner (this I pray)

I pray that you reunite me with my son and my daughters

Don't hate me for everything that I've done

Protect them from evil Jesus, I'm begging you for this

Let me tell them I'm sorry for everything that I missed

Show them you can do miracles, how you heal a broken vessel

Let them call out to you and help 'em fight against the devil

I pray for my mama, she finally gave her heart to you

Now I pray that my daddy gon' do the same thing too

My sister still struggling, God I hope you intervene

Protect my grams and show 'em are you still the King

I pray for all my friends who struggle with drug addiction

Help Lil' Tommy and Kelly Father, you know I really miss him

Bless Jimmy Graham for all the prayers on my behalf

Help Robert with driving, God I can't wait to see him laugh

And finally Lord, I pray you help my stinking baby

I thank you for making me a special kind of craziness

This I pray this, this I pray

If it's one thing you gon' do is make a way

That you lead me to a home where I can stay (this I pray)

That you hear me when I come to you with tears

And share the pain with you, I face throughout the years (this I pray)

I asked you to kill me and then you did

You had to kill me so I could live, this I pray (this I pray)

Everything you show to me, I will remember

And that you love me even though I'm still a sinner (this I pray)