First

I was the first to carry the weight

The first to be told to lead the way

They called it strength, they called it fate

But they never asked if I felt okay

Mistakes weren't mine to make

Weakness wasn't mine to show

So I stood tall, I stood alone

Never learned to just let go

Who'd carry me when I can't stand

Who'd hold me up with steady hands

I give, I give, I never take

But who'd catch me if I break

I'll work harder, I'll take on more

Slowing down feels so wrong

I know they all need me

They need me to stay strong

I was the one who always knew

How to fix it, how to get along

But the longer I keep holding on

The more I feel I don't belong

But maybe now, I start to see

That I deserve to breathe

I'm more than what I give away

I have a right to rest someday

I am not just what I provide

Not just a name, not just a guide

I can be lost, I can be free

I can be something just for me

I'll carry me when I can't stand

I'll hold me up with steady hands

I choose to live, it's not too late

No more waiting, no more weight

I can let it go

I can learn to grow

I can learn to grow