Poor maudlin child, so wise beyond my years, sigh here

Such tragedy befell me so early, Adam weeps

There's no responsibility when your life sucks this bad

But here's a secret that I keep, please don't tell anybody

I get off on suffering, it's my favorite thing

If I'm without it I can't figure out the point of anything

I get fucked up, play the victim

Fuck myself to do it quicker

Oh yeah, I get off on suffering, it's my favorite thing

My better days only terrify me

What do they mean?

One day I might have nothing left to write

Just golden light

But I know it's up to me, I can make anything

Even clear and perfect glass in my hands turns to sand

I get off on suffering, it's my favorite thing

If I'm without it I can't figure out the point of anything

I get fucked up, play the victim

Fuck myself to do it quicker

Oh yeah, I get off on suffering, it's my favorite thing

Self-awareness on vacation

Over-explaining inclinations to self-sabotage

Really it's just my fault

I've put in all the work and what I've learned is I love to hurt

I search for the pain, it feels so good to never change

I get off on suffering, it's my favorite thing

If I'm without it I can't figure out the point of anything

I get fucked up, play the victim

Fuck myself to do it quicker

Oh yeah, I get off on suffering, it's my favorite thing