Blurry, talk to me

I'll be there for you, I'm listening

I'm trying what we both want

Meet the threshold and it's gone

It's all pushing to my limits and beyond

Now I'm comfortably numb

And I'm afraid of the aftershocks

And they do think I'm cold

Reactions heartless like I wasn't even listening at all

Hard to explain that I don't want this, I'm not in control

Something broke inside and now I'm safe but I'll never be whole

Everything to reach the ceiling, falls into a void

And it's easy to ignore

All the pain inside absorbed

All the tears and every worry, things I can avoid

And it's easy to go on

'til the reckoning may come

Running, scary that this works so well, my head just finds a way

Like I'm trapped but I won't notice

Is there light beyond the grey?

Whatever it takes to feel safe

Whatever I'm keeping inside

Won't reach the outer shells of mind

Keep up the self-protection virus

Self-inflicted, I'm just running with eyes on standby

How could this happen to me?

How long will it take until you lose your trust in me?

I'm waiting to be sober and to feel

Everything to reach the ceiling, falls into a void

And it's easy to ignore

All the pain inside absorbed

All the tears and every worry, things I can avoid

And it's easy to go on

'til the reckoning may come

Love, did you take all that weight again?

Into the void

Whatever I'm keeping inside

Won't reach the outer shells of mind

Exhausted because I still try

To light every path I can find

But it only leads deeper

'til I feel too tired to seek

Too heavy to leap

Losing my voice to the shouts you won't hear

This is now how I recede

Love, did you take all that weight again?

Into the void

Everything to reach the ceiling, falls into a void

And it's easy to ignore

All the pain inside absorbed

All the tears and every worry, things I can avoid

And it's easy to go on

'til the reckoning may come