Dearly Departed

I'm holding onto a feelin' Endorphin rush to the brain I want it all to keep goin' I mess it up again Why do I always Fuck things up When they're goin' fine Tell myself that I know what I'm doin' I am no martyr Only make it harder for me I'll stay lost When I ask for direction Put myself In a shitty position Dearly departed Get me out of my head Get me out of my head Maybe I like staying no one Just when I start makin' names for myself I finally get into heaven I think I am better suited for hell Because I always Fuck things up When they're goin' fine Tell myself that I know what I'm doin' I am no martyr Only make it harder for me I'll stay lost When I ask for direction Put myself In a shitty position Dearly departed Get me out of my head Get me out of my head I put my foot in my mouth My head was filling' with doubt Back in hometown They keep erasin' my name I guess I'm takin' the blame Gimme the runaround For so long been gettin' used to feelin' miserable Don't you feel miserable, too? Why do I do what I do? I couldn't fix it if I wanted to Why do I always Fuck things up Now you've run out of pity Startin' to think That I like feelin' shitty What a disorder Don't even bother I am no martyr Please don't feel sorry for me