My head is full of filth

My heart is full of garbage

And maybe there is love

Or maybe it's just carbon

I don't wanna leave

I wanna stay awake

Been missing out on things

Been living in a fugue state

I wanna see the bees

They pollinate the flower

I wanna talk to you

And stay up all hours

And I gotta try

I just gotta try

Giving up on you

I'm giving up on us

Living in a bubble of trust

I wan't honest

All I wanna be is somewhere else

And all I need to be is real with myself

I've been feeling so small

I've been feeling nothing at all

Like a leaf in the wind

Gone to blow

My head is full of good

My heart is like a garden

My head is full of growth

My heart is ripened harvest

My heart is full of love

Here I am

(I don't wanna lie anymore)