Difficult

My double vision

Is only amplifyin' everythin' he isn't

Till I feel less attached and bored to death, but listen

It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition

And I've been thinkin'

If I move out this year, I'll feel my parents slippin'

Away and also, I'm just scared of that commitment

I really think sometimes there's somethin' that I'm missin'

Oh, I know

Spiralin' is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

And oh, I hope

I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult

To name this feelin'

Would take a hundred thousand years, some kind of grievin'

But over what I never had, so I've been speakin'

To my therapist, I call her every weekend

I meant to tell you

How I've hated how we left things when it fell through

'Cause you were everythin' to me, where did you run to?

Was it somethin' that I said that colored you blue?

Oh, I know

Spiralin' is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

And oh, I hope

I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult, difficult

Difficult

I

Difficult

I've been drinkin'

And stayin' up too late, relivin' bad decisions

I thought eventually, my ranting here would fix it

I really think sometimes there's somethin' that I'm missin'

Oh, I know

Spiralin' is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

And oh, I hope

I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult, difficult

Oh, I know

Spiralin' is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

And oh, I hope

I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult, difficult