Nose to nose I hold you so close in the moment

Though I know I feel it slipping away

I told you to shut your mouth when you started talking

About passing years, passing days

I've been having visions of you as a baby

Maybe part of it is all in my head

I don't think I understand time as a line

I wasn't meant to live it like this I guess

And I don't know how you people do it

See it all without the urge to fall right through it

Crack open a photo book

Sit alone at 20 and look for a sign that I was there

Staring to the ceiling and contemplate the feeling

Of total obsoletion, dust, and despair

And yet I can't stop trying

To hold every beautiful thing in my hands

I suck the pulp until I choke on what was never meant to last

And still I hope, although I know I’m never gonna get it all back

I feel limited in my constant sensitivity

To what I know will hurt me soon

Every day I spend in the sun I waste thinking of

What will come when it’s time for the moon

If I have to love you, I don't know how to do it

Without holding on too tight

And I don't want to leave you but I might

Only 'cause I don't know how to do this right

Yet I can't stop trying

To hold every beautiful thing in my hands

I suck the pulp until I choke on what was never meant to last

And still I hope, although I know I’m never gonna get it all back

Oh, just hold me

Tell me I can hold it all too

Tell me something small

Lie so I can make it through

Tell me there’s another side

And I’ll be with it again

Fake omnipotence so I can crawl back into bed