Hell

It is the hell I created

I used to have dreams I'm raking in green

I looked at my father and yelled that I made it

But now I don't.. I don't even think

I'll make outta this house

I'm fuckin' frustrated

lord forgive me for killing the kid that you made

now I'm the devil in making

A devil in makin you waking me up but in vain

I gave up already cold blood in my veins

I'm done shittin on expectations I fuck up relations

with people I care for

done with those people

done with the fantasies i used to fiend for

what in the hell did I dream of

No one to feel for hittin a blunt of sativa

funny was once a believer. huh

I member the time when I had the goals

And I was determined, I'm talking to you

where are you now you still have the goals

but you ain't doin' shit how the fuck they'll be true?

I'm watching my downfall I don't have a clue

they say you be you, how come I ain't true

adrenaline's caged like a lion in zoo

I go to the roof and I look up to sky and I ask myself why the sky isn't blue

I guess it is

I guess I'm dying

I guess that the devil's decreasing the hue

I feel I'm not in depression

I cannot unsee the pressure

forget all the love and affection

en route to self destruction

And they tell me I'll be Alright, Alright

I just wanna stay awake all night

I don't need to go away, go away

From y'all

I think that I'm lost again

Yes I'm fuckin lost again

I know that I'm losing this game

I really got enough of this pain

I think that I'm lost again

Yes I'm fuckin lost again

I know that I'm losing this game

I really got enough of this pain

I'm standing in front of the devil

And begging to leave

(Begging to leave)

I'm alienating myself

Cause i cannot feel

( i cannot deal)

I'm losing myself in the pressure

That can i be back?

Was reading Quran

And found out that Iblis wasn't a Jin

And made out of sin and that made him bad

I'm killing my vision

And killing ambitions

I'm making a dungeon myself

Don't know my condition

I need no attention

I feel like I'm reaching the end

I'm giving it up and

Can't take it no more

I wanna run out

But can't find a door

I wanna make outta this house

I'm thinking it loud

But fuck it man

I cannot soare

We been livin life on hopin

Father can't let me this broken

I don't think i can get back me now

Neva gave up on my passion

Now my dreams are bout to ashen

And I am losing it all

They tell me I'll be Alright, alright

I just wanna stay awake all night

I don't need to go away, go away

From y'all

I think that I'm lost again

Yes I'm fuckin lost again

I know that I'm losing this game

I really got enough of this pain

I think that I'm lost again

Yes I'm fuckin lost again

I know that I'm losing this game

I just got enough of this pain