Somewhere inside me, there's a war that I'm not over

Pulling at my own sanity

I still don't get it, am I victim or a soldier?

'Cause everybody's waving at me

Surrounded by the deafening sound

Of no one ever slowing down

The news fire like bullets on my feed

And every time I turn off anxiety

Awakening dependency, it's hard to conceal

You're tellin' me how this will work out

Better tell me, what's this all about?

My body is just trying to breathe

While you wanna tell me what life means

Why'd you keep me chasing your ideals?

None of this has ever become real

This wearing battle is now coming to a showdown

And we both know what that means

You open fire, I am bulletproof, I scroll down

Defeat you with my short-term memory

Now all your words that get me down

Fade away and peter out

Like broken echos caught on repeat

I know you'll challenge me again

I'll never fall under your spell

No enemy is harder to beat

You're tellin' me there's no room for doubt?

Now I'll tell you what it's all about

My body is just trying to breathe

While you wanna tell me what life means

Why'd you keep me chasing your ideals?

None of this has ever become real

My body is just trying to breathe

While I'm moving like a numb machine

Wonder if I ever have been real

Won't somebody tell me what I feel?

Oh, bring me back, reanimate

Feeling every step I take

A new-found freedom's starting to beat

Yeah, my body's learning now how to breathe (gonna find out)

Oh, to understand what life means (time to break out)

If all I've ever dreamed about becomes real

How could I not trust myself to see? (yeah)