I get I haven’t been present,

just trying to save myself down the line

I think of all these scenarios,

and how I would deal with them all in time

Thought it could maybe protect me,

if I never wake from that recurring dream

where you get shot in the neck and the airplane crashes into the sea

I don’t mean to ignore you,

it’s just that I’m a hundred miles away

It’s like you’re talking to thin air,

already forgotten what you’ve said

When I told my friend about it,

she said, ‘it’s like you die one-thousand deaths’

Thought that I could prepare for all of the things that I’ve come to dread

It’s like you die one-thousand deaths