A Familiar Direction

Straight down, a familiar direction

Stay out, never wanted at home

Too busy backing myself into a corner

Too late to figure out the things I don't know

Same round, another year in a cycle

Laid out, each time a heavier blow

I must've turned myself around in the moment

I could've put it down a decade ago

A million ways that I could start it again

To lift a heavier head

Too scared of moving the wrong way

I promise everything is going to plan

I want to lay in my own sunlight again

Deserve to lie in my skin

Give myself over to something

Instead I'm counting all the lines in my hands

Came to, laying out in the open

Bold colors floating over my head

I'll have some answers when I wake in the morning

'Til then I'm clueless as to where to begin

Bleed red, another drop in an ocean

Sharks circle at the foot of my bed

Celebrate another year in the making

Treading water trying not to forget

A million ways that I could start it again

To lift a heavier head

Too scared of moving the wrong way

I promise everything is going to plan

I want to lay in my own sunlight again

Deserve to lie in my skin

Give myself over to something

Instead I'm counting all the lines in my hands