Pitiful

Tormented by the voices, regrettin' some of my choices (Choices)

Tell me, how you give me life, I give you poison? (How?)

How you provide enough to ensure my survival (Survival)

And how I try to judge you like it's my name that's in the Bible (Uh-uh-uh)

That was wretched of me, pitiful, how dare I be so critical?

We'll put some extra cut in it, you cut my umbilical (Cut my umbilical)

Ridicule, you get high, I feel like I ain't shit to you

Miserable, couldn't see I really mean the world to you (Couldn't see)

Serving you, being disrespectful, even swung on you

Got mad and pulled a knife on you

Wishing that you had a gun on you

'Cause some things I gotta live with really weigh a lot

Probably gon' weigh tenfold when you not around (Not around)

Thinkin' of it now, I know I could drown easily (So easily)

Dread to face today, pray for me if I reach to see that (Pray)

Time come to pass

'Cause I ain't up to task (Pray), you my motherfuckin' hardship

My mind might collapse, I'm so pitiful (Pitiful)

So pitiful (Uh-uh-uh)

Way beyond pitiful

I'm talkin' pitiful

Feel like I ain't shit to you (No)

Being pitiful

I will pity you

No, no, no, pitiful

Tormented by your memory, sitting here, wishing you was next to me (Next to me)

How you give me love, but I become the enemy? (How?)

Toxic energy, like you was just another casualty

Haphazardly walking out of your life so casually (Casually)

Like you never truly held me down a day in your life

All I gave you was pain, but all you gave me was right

Should've made you my wife, but you should spit in my face

I should've gave you my best, instead, I came with disgrace

Any excuses I could make fall short of justification (They always do)

We're just an ingrate elated with new-found validation

Impatient to denigrate something potentially so sacred

Secretly afraid of pain, making you carry the weight of my past anguish

I'm wildin', feeling like I'm really out here stylin' (What?)

Denying what I know is real, I really ain't about shit (Nah)

Childish when you someone I could've had a child with

Instead, I'm feeling you in doubt, my love, you better off without it, nah

That was pitiful, nah

I'm talkin' pitiful, so pitiful

I understand why I ain't shit to you, I get it

Truthfully, I'm beyond pitiful

So pitiful

Woah, woah