I hold your mistakes high over your head

Especially when they look like mine

I'm not one to hand out my forgiveness

But I expect it every time

It's just me and the accusations you made

It pains me to admit you were right

Someday I will be someone you resent

Honey, the pleasure is all mine

Well, I heard you're calling me a traitor

Owe you a good apology, I'll do it later

Wrote all my stories and I paint myself the good guy

This is the end of my tunnel, it's a gaslight

Yeah, I heard you're calling me a monster

After all the shit I pulled, you could do better

Heart of gold, will I fold for a good time?

I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right

You gave me your all

It was intimate

I guess it ain't your fault

That I can't commit

Yeah, you talk till you scream, I never listen

I couldn't help but feel so indifferent

Yeah, all my failures are visceral

I still taste blood from years ago

Push and shove til you're giving up

Just to prove you ain't good enough

Shoot my meanest words like arrows

I make damn sure they echo

I make damn sure they echo

Well, I heard you're calling me a traitor

Owe you a good apology, I'll do it later

Wrote all my stories and I paint myself the good guy

This is the end of my tunnel, it's a gaslight

Yeah, I heard you're calling me a monster

After all the shit I pulled, you could do better

Heart of gold, will I fold for a good time?

I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right

I can't even be honest with myself

How could you believe I'd do that for someone else?

Lying out of my teeth and it sounds so nice

You're down on your knee, but I don't want that life

You're waiting for me at the back of the bar

While I'm kissing boys in the back of their cars

It's half past 3 and you're fast asleep

While I'm on the phone with Jodie

Will I ever know why I am like this?

I go for what I can't have like I'm righteous

I'm pointing all of my fingers, can't face the shame

If you wanna place blame, just say my name

I go home alone and I think it's strange

I got what I want but it don't taste the same

Now the only ones who know me are my felonies, tellin me

Everyone who's ever loved me is the enemy

I get high on all the jealousy

You can't forgive the infidelity

And I can't take it back and i don't wanna be

Someone who lives like that in this economy

When I was supposed to be a good friend, trusted

I snuck around with the love of your life instead

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Well, I heard you're calling me a traitor

Owe you a good apology, I'll do it later

Wrote all my stories and I paint myself the good guy

This is the end of my tunnel, it's a gaslight

Yeah, I heard you're calling me a monster

After all the shit I pulled, you should do better

Heart of gold, but I fold for a good time

I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right

I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right

I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right

(you should do better)

I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right

(you should do better)

I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right

I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right

I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right

I'll do what I want, what I want over what's right

Do what I want, what I want over what's right