When an urge kicks in again

I’m afraid as the thoughts begin

What if I don’t uphold my bargain to remain a friend

And find myself back there again

Keep a secret, play pretend

That I control myself and my desires do surrender

I’ve been waiting on the fence to see what’s right

Having nothing but a vice to hold me tight

But I saw it, and I can’t help but want it, with morbid eyes

And I know it, but I don’t wanna be a let down

If I showed it, you’d think I’m a weirdo

Perverse and void

A compulsive deviant

Appetite surfaced again

And I’ve been waiting on the fence to see what’s right

Having nothing but a vice to hold me tight

I feel like I’m a stranger when I decide

But I saw it, and I can’t help but want it

When her eyes tell me I’m perfect and so wanted

I saw it, I can’t help but want it, with morbid eyes